Dear Visitor from Mountain View, California


Dear visitor from Mountain View, California:

First of all, hi. Maybe you know me or maybe you don’t — but what does it matter?
Maybe you care what I write about or maybe you don’t — but what does it matter?
Maybe you’re a search bot or a web spider, maybe you’re from Yahoo or maybe from Google — but what does it matter? Some Questions Can't Be Answered by Google
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Maybe you’re digging up my archives, looking for something that isn’t there…
Maybe you want to know more about me or maybe you’re looking for a self-incriminating post or a libelous statement, one that’s enough to send me to jail — but what does it matter?
Maybe you have all the time in the world to read my entries to the letter because you don’t really have a job and you’re just whiling the hours away or maybe it’s actually your job to visit and lurk for hours on end — but what does it matter?
Maybe you’re really from Mountain View, California or maybe you’re just from here, doing proxy server voodoo or something — but what does it matter?
Maybe you’ll visit again or maybe never again — but what does it matter?

I know nothing about you dear visitor from Mountain View, California.
All I know is that you come by this small space of mine more often than I do.
And when you’re here, the traces you leave show me that you make the most out of your visits.
Sometimes you visit in the morning, towards the afternoon, or the evening, and sometimes even in the wee hours of the morning.
I don’t know what you get from such exhaustive visits, I don’t even know if my posts are worth your time. Maybe they are. Or maybe they aren’t.
But what does it matter?
But dear visitor from Mountain View, California, I would like you to know that I appreciate each visit, each mouse click or automated software that pings my post — whatever it is that brings you here — in this useless and unknown blog of mine.
Maybe you are real, maybe you aren’t — but what does it matter?
Who cares if you’re made of clay, metallic or organic? Who cares if you’re made of code or if you actually eat food?

Does it really matter? I know it doesn’t.

Because dear visitor from Mountain View, California, much of the world’s happiness is brought by the most unusual things — things you can’t see or feel — things you can’t explain, bottle up or frame.
So, dear visitor from Mountain View, California, I thank you for your frequent visits — however odd the time and length..because inexplicable as they are, these visits give me another reason to rack my brain, press the letters on this keyboard and come up with something — something for you to visit, read, inspect, index, compile — or do anything with.
This post is for you, dear visitor from Mountain View, California. I hope you come back here again to find that your visits are noted and appreciated.

Even if I know that it’s most likely automated.

Happy to know you,

RJ

Let me know what you think… :)

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About Me
Cecilia Regina Aquino Blanquera Marmol aka RJ Marmol profile picture

I’m RJ Marmol — writer, musician, and independent creator based in Manila.

I write songs, essays, and books about the messy overlap between money, overwhelm, creativity, identity, and rebuilding. Much of my work circles around what happens when life stops feeling manageable — and how we try to think clearly, make decisions, and keep moving anyway.

I’m also the author of Rebuilding Under Debt: Thinking Clearly When Everything Is a Blur, a nonfiction book published under Steady Hand Press. The paperback edition is listed under my full publishing name, Cecilia Regina Aquino Blanquera.

On the music side, I release work as HeyRJ. On the writing side, this site is where I gather my books, essays, notes, and whatever I’m building next.

Music

HeyRJ is my sonic soul project. I create raw, minimalist-style and deeply personal music interpretations that feel like a late-night conversation with your truest self.

By blending lo-fi acoustic textures with poetic honesty, my work explores love, loss, grief, healing, and the quiet in-betweens of life. Each song is a letter — a journal entry — a gentle companion for when the world feels too loud or too quiet.

While my catalogue began with intimate cover renditions, my work is increasingly being shaped by original writing, drawing from years of poems, lived questions, and emotional survival.

“Stuck Home Syndrome” released on March 20, 2026 is my first original 20-track album written during a period when time felt compressed and days began to blur into each other. The songs came from sitting with thoughts that had nowhere else to go — unfiltered, repetitive, and sometimes uncomfortable. It’s a concept album that isn’t built around singles or polish. It’s closer to a continuous inner monologue, recorded with minimal production and very little ornamentation and meant to be listened to as one cohesive body of work. The goal wasn’t to resolve anything, only to document how it felt while it was happening.

On May 29, 2026 I released new original singles – “Rapturous”, “Uh Huh”, “Look At You”, “All That” and “Blew Print”. I continue to release both original and cover songs and intend to so for as long as I can so check back every once in a while — you might. just find something you’ll like.

For business inquiries relating to music, email me at: heyrjmusic[at]gmail[dot]com or my personal email at: rjmarmol[at]gmail[dot]com.

Books

Rebuilding Under Debt: Thinking Clearly When Everything Is a Blur

A nonfiction book about what debt does to the mind — and how to begin functioning again when financial stress has made everything feel blurred, urgent, and overwhelming.

Rather than treating debt only as a financial math problem, the book explores the emotional and cognitive realities of financial distress: shame, decision fatigue, avoidance, panic, relationship strain, and the difficulty of making sound decisions while mentally depleted.

Published under Steady Hand Press. It’s available worldwide in ebook and paperback formats on Amazon. Bookstores and libraries can also be order it wholesale via Ingram.

Contact

For book-related inquiries, media requests, bookstore questions, or discussion-group invitations, you can reach me through the contact page on this site or send me an email to rjmarmol[at]gmail[dot]com or hello[at]steadyhandpress.com