The hours have come and gone
And I can't remember how many times
I've cursed and checked this phone
It keeps buzzing and ringing
Blasting and humming
As I scramble and ramble
As I twist and I stumble
There's something I wait for
That I fully know is done for
I cast it aside
I took it in stride
I know something is off
That I strive to remember
There is something real good
But I cast it asunder
Is it under my bed
Was it all in my head
Did it just pass me by?
Did I bleed, did I cry?
I'm grasping for words
I've been pulling the cords
I'm dusting the cobwebs
I'm all out of sorts
Something was here
Close to me, I could swore
But it slipped through my hands
And away from my shore
I see specks of it floating
I could feel my fear mounting
My steps have become unsteady
My sight has begun to blur
What used to be here
I'm sure I've seen it before
Is no longer in my memory
But beyond that cold door
Of a past so clouded
And confused and shrouded
In mystery and debauchery
In glory and in theory
Piles of pictures
Cover this fresh scent of sutures
I lie and lie
I die and die
I send these cruel thoughts
To the one that's on high
This floor may be cold
Like a story untold
I guess this is what it feels like
When you start to get old.
(end)
I’m RJ Marmol — writer, musician, and independent creator based in Manila.
I write songs, essays, and books about the messy overlap between money, overwhelm, creativity, identity, and rebuilding. Much of my work circles around what happens when life stops feeling manageable — and how we try to think clearly, make decisions, and keep moving anyway.
On the music side, I release work as HeyRJ. On the writing side, this site is where I gather my books, essays, notes, and whatever I’m building next.
Music
HeyRJ is my sonic soul project. I create raw, minimalist-style and deeply personal music interpretations that feel like a late-night conversation with your truest self.
By blending lo-fi acoustic textures with poetic honesty, my work explores love, loss, grief, healing, and the quiet in-betweens of life. Each song is a letter — a journal entry — a gentle companion for when the world feels too loud or too quiet.
While my catalogue began with intimate cover renditions, my work is increasingly being shaped by original writing, drawing from years of poems, lived questions, and emotional survival.
“Stuck Home Syndrome”released on March 20, 2026 is my first original 20-track album written during a period when time felt compressed and days began to blur into each other. The songs came from sitting with thoughts that had nowhere else to go — unfiltered, repetitive, and sometimes uncomfortable. It’s a concept album that isn’t built around singles or polish. It’s closer to a continuous inner monologue, recorded with minimal production and very little ornamentation and meant to be listened to as one cohesive body of work. The goal wasn’t to resolve anything, only to document how it felt while it was happening.
On May 29, 2026 I released new original singles – “Rapturous”, “Uh Huh”, “Look At You”, “All That” and “Blew Print”. I continue to release both original and cover songs and intend to so for as long as I can so check back every once in a while — you might. just find something you’ll like.
For business inquiries relating to music, email me at: heyrjmusic[at]gmail[dot]com or my personal email at: rjmarmol[at]gmail[dot]com.
A nonfiction book about what debt does to the mind — and how to begin functioning again when financial stress has made everything feel blurred, urgent, and overwhelming.
Rather than treating debt only as a financial math problem, the book explores the emotional and cognitive realities of financial distress: shame, decision fatigue, avoidance, panic, relationship strain, and the difficulty of making sound decisions while mentally depleted.
Published under Steady Hand Press. It’s available worldwide in ebook and paperback formats on Amazon. Bookstores and libraries can also be order it wholesale via Ingram.
Contact
For book-related inquiries, media requests, bookstore questions, or discussion-group invitations, you can reach me through the contact page on this site or send me an email to rjmarmol[at]gmail[dot]com or hello[at]steadyhandpress.com
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