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Too Much (Of My Love) Will Kill You

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Too Much (Of My Love) Will Kill You

by: rj

How much of my love can you take, I wonder.

Before you lie dead or run for cover?

How much of my affection can you receive

When you take so much that I have none left to give?

How much of my whims can you endure

Before you say, “I’ve had it with you, I’m sure!”?

How much of my thoughts can you hold

Before you tell me, “Honey, all of that’s been told!”?

I give you too much and you say “That’s enough!”

So I  give just a little, and you ask, “Is that all you got?”

I ask too many questions and you say, “What’s with all these?

Dear, all that is giving me unease.

So I keep quiet and shut my mouth and you say, “What the hell’s  wrong with you?

Speak, say something. You know I’d rather that you ask.”

I say too much of my love will kill you.

If you don’t know yet, well it’s high time that it hit you.

Too much of my attention will spoil you — and rot, you will,

Oh yes you will, I tell you.

Too much of my affection will melt you, make you soft as a pillow,

light as a feather — a brand new you.

Too much of my fire will scorch you — no — burn you!

Like a helpless pile of dry leaves under the unforgiving sun’s heat.

You’ll never know love until you’ve felt mine.

You’ll never know life until you’ve lived yours with mine.

You’ll never know pain until I hit you like a train.

And you’ll never know death until you drive me insane.

Let me know what you think… :)

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● About Me
Cecilia Regina Aquino Blanquera Marmol aka RJ Marmol profile picture

I’m RJ Marmol — writer, musician, and independent creator based in Manila.

I write songs, essays, and books about the messy overlap between money, overwhelm, creativity, identity, and rebuilding. Much of my work circles around what happens when life stops feeling manageable — and how we try to think clearly, make decisions, and keep moving anyway.

I’m also the author of Rebuilding Under Debt: Thinking Clearly When Everything Is a Blur, a nonfiction book published under Steady Hand Press. The paperback edition is listed under my full publishing name, Cecilia Regina Aquino Blanquera.

On the music side, I release work as HeyRJ. On the writing side, this site is where I gather my books, essays, notes, and whatever I’m building next.

Music

HeyRJ is my sonic soul project. I create raw, minimalist-style and deeply personal music interpretations that feel like a late-night conversation with your truest self.

By blending lo-fi acoustic textures with poetic honesty, my work explores love, loss, grief, healing, and the quiet in-betweens of life. Each song is a letter — a journal entry — a gentle companion for when the world feels too loud or too quiet.

While my catalogue began with intimate cover renditions, my work is increasingly being shaped by original writing, drawing from years of poems, lived questions, and emotional survival.

“Stuck Home Syndrome” released on March 20, 2026 is my first original 20-track album written during a period when time felt compressed and days began to blur into each other. The songs came from sitting with thoughts that had nowhere else to go — unfiltered, repetitive, and sometimes uncomfortable. It’s a concept album that isn’t built around singles or polish. It’s closer to a continuous inner monologue, recorded with minimal production and very little ornamentation and meant to be listened to as one cohesive body of work. The goal wasn’t to resolve anything, only to document how it felt while it was happening.

On May 29, 2026 I released new original singles – “Rapturous”, “Uh Huh”, “Look At You”, “All That” and “Blew Print”. I continue to release both original and cover songs and intend to so for as long as I can so check back every once in a while — you might. just find something you’ll like.

For business inquiries relating to music, email me at: heyrjmusic[at]gmail[dot]com or my personal email at: rjmarmol[at]gmail[dot]com.

Books

Rebuilding Under Debt: Thinking Clearly When Everything Is a Blur

A nonfiction book about what debt does to the mind — and how to begin functioning again when financial stress has made everything feel blurred, urgent, and overwhelming.

Rather than treating debt only as a financial math problem, the book explores the emotional and cognitive realities of financial distress: shame, decision fatigue, avoidance, panic, relationship strain, and the difficulty of making sound decisions while mentally depleted.

Published under Steady Hand Press. It’s available worldwide in ebook and paperback formats on Amazon. Bookstores and libraries can also be order it wholesale via Ingram.

Contact

For book-related inquiries, media requests, bookstore questions, or discussion-group invitations, you can reach me through the contact page on this site or send me an email to rjmarmol[at]gmail[dot]com or hello[at]steadyhandpress.com

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