Lie To Me


* Note: I am cross-posting this “verse” from my “private” blog which most people might find very disturbing, rebellious and explicit. I call it the “blog of and about the darker side of me“. Obviously, as much as I’d like to, I can’t even post the blog’s URL and I’ve blocked it from search engines as well.

This one post is actually the “tamest” article I’ve written there. This is not the original article. This is actually the “watered-down” version of it and I would want to share it here. I wish I could share more. :)

Lie To Me

I am clever. Too clever for comfort, so they say. I can smell a lie from miles away. But, oh I love the way you lie to me in the break of day. It’s as if it’s always the first of May.

I believe everything you say until your mouth runs dry. It feels so good to know that you want me so much that you try. Lie to me dear, as many times as you want, I don’t mind. You know I will believe you, all the reasons I will find.

Lie to me about how you care, how much you miss me and want to touch my hair. Lie to me about how much you enjoy every single minute that we share. Tell me darling, that to no one do I compare.

Lie to me about how many times you cried, all those sleepless nights you cried and tried. Give me roses, write me proses. Lead me to the promised land just like good old Moses.

Tell me about the days that passed when you felt that without me, you just wouldn’t last. Call me often, write a letter, you know that I wouldn’t like it any better.

Give me that look — the one I read in my favorite book, that pierces through my soul, which I took and I took. Linger a while longer, love me harder, love me stronger. You are a mistake I will never throw asunder.

Remind me of the many ways I turn you on, like a glowing candle in the raging storm. Make me yours as I’ve made you mine. Hold me close ’til the end of time.

Walk the ground, unafraid and unfazed as I smile and approve of your courage as I gaze. The sight of your body glistening in the sun, the way it moves, oh there is nothing more fun.

Lie to me about how abruptly you’ll wither, without my love, you’re an Adonis without a lover. Tell me stories about your adventures and fleeting pleasure and that when you have found me, you realized there is no greater treasure.

Tell me that I am the prize you hold dear in your dreams, when your world is falling apart at the seams. Tell me that darling, tell me that, dear, with me beside you, there is nothing you fear.

Lie to me now, come on, I’ll show you how, I’ll even teach you how to take a bow. Give me a show I will never forget, until I grow old and get close to death.

To the truth of the world, I say, I don’t care, so long as I know you will always be there.

Love me the best way you can, at night and in the day. Oh dear, please tell me you love me, in the most romantic way. Tell me there is nothing else you hold dear, that you are stronger and better whenever I am near.

That regardless of the cost, you are always more than willing to pay. That you prefer me over your coffee, your politics or your play.

Lie to me everyday and I assure you I will stay, until my life is over and your hair turns grey. Lie to me, oh please lie to me, my love, it’s okay. As long as you promise you won’t go away.

Lie to me in the morning while the sun is shining. Lie to me in the evening, no, we aren’t sleeping.

Lie to me love, lie to me all your life, enduring all possible grief and unbearable strife. Lie to me like you won’t lie to no other, even to your distant brother or your doting mother.

Lie to me now, I beg of you, please do. Can’t you see I have made myself a first-class fool for you? Lie to me now, and swear like you always do. And by God, I swear I’ll always believe you. I do, oh I do.

Lie to me well, do it well, do it well. Lie to me and tell me I’m more beautiful than Belle. Because if you aren’t true, see my smile and construe, there isn’t a moment that I won’t lie to you too.

2 responses to “Lie To Me”

  1. good project.

    kabins last blog post..Konteyner

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  2. I think it is sad… But you know, I could somehow picture myself as the one saying those words… How I loved to be lied, especially if it involves a person whom I really care about. I’d rather that he lied to me, because if he did, maybe we are still together… :(

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About Me
Cecilia Regina Aquino Blanquera Marmol aka RJ Marmol profile picture

I’m RJ Marmol — writer, musician, and independent creator based in Manila.

I write songs, essays, and books about the messy overlap between money, overwhelm, creativity, identity, and rebuilding. Much of my work circles around what happens when life stops feeling manageable — and how we try to think clearly, make decisions, and keep moving anyway.

I’m also the author of Rebuilding Under Debt: Thinking Clearly When Everything Is a Blur, a nonfiction book published under Steady Hand Press. The paperback edition is listed under my full publishing name, Cecilia Regina Aquino Blanquera.

On the music side, I release work as HeyRJ. On the writing side, this site is where I gather my books, essays, notes, and whatever I’m building next.

Music

HeyRJ is my sonic soul project. I create raw, minimalist-style and deeply personal music interpretations that feel like a late-night conversation with your truest self.

By blending lo-fi acoustic textures with poetic honesty, my work explores love, loss, grief, healing, and the quiet in-betweens of life. Each song is a letter — a journal entry — a gentle companion for when the world feels too loud or too quiet.

While my catalogue began with intimate cover renditions, my work is increasingly being shaped by original writing, drawing from years of poems, lived questions, and emotional survival.

“Stuck Home Syndrome” released on March 20, 2026 is my first original 20-track album written during a period when time felt compressed and days began to blur into each other. The songs came from sitting with thoughts that had nowhere else to go — unfiltered, repetitive, and sometimes uncomfortable. It’s a concept album that isn’t built around singles or polish. It’s closer to a continuous inner monologue, recorded with minimal production and very little ornamentation and meant to be listened to as one cohesive body of work. The goal wasn’t to resolve anything, only to document how it felt while it was happening.

On May 29, 2026 I released new original singles – “Rapturous”, “Uh Huh”, “Look At You”, “All That” and “Blew Print”. I continue to release both original and cover songs and intend to so for as long as I can so check back every once in a while — you might. just find something you’ll like.

For business inquiries relating to music, email me at: heyrjmusic[at]gmail[dot]com or my personal email at: rjmarmol[at]gmail[dot]com.

Books

Rebuilding Under Debt: Thinking Clearly When Everything Is a Blur

A nonfiction book about what debt does to the mind — and how to begin functioning again when financial stress has made everything feel blurred, urgent, and overwhelming.

Rather than treating debt only as a financial math problem, the book explores the emotional and cognitive realities of financial distress: shame, decision fatigue, avoidance, panic, relationship strain, and the difficulty of making sound decisions while mentally depleted.

Published under Steady Hand Press. It’s available worldwide in ebook and paperback formats on Amazon. Bookstores and libraries can also be order it wholesale via Ingram.

Contact

For book-related inquiries, media requests, bookstore questions, or discussion-group invitations, you can reach me through the contact page on this site or send me an email to rjmarmol[at]gmail[dot]com or hello[at]steadyhandpress.com