There's No Turning Back


With all that’s been written about the Bangsamoro Juridical Entity MOA on Ancestral Domain (BJE MOA on AD), it is as if the issue gets more and more tiring to discuss and write about everyday. It’s September 2. Two days more and the SC TRO celebrates(?) its one month anniversary. To this day, although the BJE MOA on AD seems to be good as dead — or “comatose” as others have called it — the issue just wouldn’t die a natural death. And why not? Freedom(?) or self-determination and the struggle for it is something far more important than the struggle for survival. If you don’t believe it, ask yourself why we have heroes now. Ask yourself why Jose Rizal, the Ilustrado that he is or Andres Bonifacio, the poor guy that he is — the two of them doing their own style of revolt had no second thoughts about putting their lives at risk for something they believed was above them or of their preoccupations — the vision of a free Philippines. They know first-hand how a lot more difficult it is to survive and yet be enslaved or put more objectively, be under the rule of a colonizer. It is every man’s instinct to fight for freedom — for self-rule.

It is no wonder then, that the struggle of the Bangsamoro people, our brothers and sisters who consider themselves no less Filipinos than we all are despite their desire for self-determination, have continually fought for their right at all odds and at all costs. BJE or no BJE, their struggle for recognition and acceptance as the “first nation” will always remain. This sentiment burns inside them, passed on from generations to generations..and will probably continue even after many of us are long gone. Sometimes, I feel that if we, the “more tolerant” people of the Spanish and American occupation had that same conviction, everything would have been different. Not necessarily better or worse — but different.

After all that’s happened this past month, it is obvious. After all these years, we still aren’t ready to accept them. As the song goes, “so glad we’ve almost made it…so sad they had to fade it..” We were almost there. We were so close. It could have brought us the peace we’ve long been waiting for. We were so close. But how are we to know now? The MOA was dead the moment it was TRO’d by the SC. That wasn’t just a snag or a hurdle we had to overcome. That was a barrier. A thick concrete wall that went up so high there was no way to cross it.

It’s tempting to think that somehow the message of peace embedded in the botched BJE MOA on AD was lost in translation — as it was “translated” by speculators and other otherwise well-meaning pundits. Sometimes headlines can be very misleading. Sometimes, it is best to play cynic. As I’ve noticed, many articles on the MOA had been mostly anti-BJE. I hope that doesn’t mean they are anti-peace. But just the same, the picture of the Bangsamoro being secessionists are prevalent in the papers. Just look at the headliines, editorials and caricatures. It is therefore no wonder that the BJE MOA never found favor in the average ill-informed or uninformed Filipino.

But right now, it seems useless to lobby for it. The Palace, through Solicitor General Devanadera and almost all its secretaries (press, executive..etc) have unanimously announced that the government is now junking the MOA for real. It will not be signed either in its “present form” or “in any form” and have quickly announced a new policy for dealing with the negotiations — that it will only be in the context of DDR (disarmament, demobilization and rehabilitation). And what do you expect the MILF thinks about all this? As if they’ll ever say yes to this excitedly. I’m guessing they have this to say: “DDR? In your dreams, pare!”. I mean, come on. Do you expect them to believe that they will finally achieve through unarmed negotiations what they never got through armed negotiations? Very Hollywood-ish. Unlikely, if you ask me. They will never give up the sole source of their perceived power. All this new strategy will lead just lead to more and more conflict and more and more related problems. And now, we face a new issue. We face the issue of starting over and starting off at the wrong foot. This is no clean slate. This is a full plate we start with.

Welcome to your life, there’s no turning back..

This is our life now — the post-BJE-MOA-junked kind of life. Endless fighting. More food scarcity. More evacuees, now having their Ramadan in makeshift ecvacuation centers with no more than a roof for protection. More political and social unrest. Oh, yes, we have our little Darfur now here in our own backyard. It may not be a direct ethnic-cleansing but it’s war just the same. This is our people suffering here. These are fellow Filipinos.

I hope there aren’t Filipinos celebrating the fact that the peace process was a failure — that the BJE MOA was a failure. That the negotiators were failures. That we are now at war.

To you, my fellow Filipinos, Muslims. Christians, Lumads.. and all the stakeholders in the Mindanao peace process, in this crucial time in our history, I dedicate this song:

Everybody Wants to Rule The World — by Tears for Fears

<<== Click to pla<p>With all that’s been written about the <b>Bangsamoro Juridical Entity MOA on Ancestral Domain (BJE MOA on AD)</b>, it is as if the issue gets more and more tiring to discuss and write about everyday. It’s September 2. Two days more and the<b> SC TRO</b> celebrates(?) its one month anniversary. To this day, although the <b>BJE MOA on AD</b> seems to be good as dead — or “<b>comatose</b>” as others have called it — the issue just wouldn’t die a natural death. And why not? Freedom(?) or self-determination and the struggle for it is something far more important than the struggle for survival. If you don’t believe it, ask yourself why we have heroes now. Ask yourself why Jose Rizal, the Ilustrado that he is or Andres Bonifacio, the poor guy that he is — the two of them doing their own style of revolt had no second thoughts about putting their lives at risk for something they believed was above them or of their preoccupations — the vision of a free Philippines. They know first-hand how a lot more difficult it is to survive and yet be enslaved or put more objectively, be under the rule of a colonizer. It is every man’s instinct to fight for freedom — for self-rule. <img src=”http://adayinthelifeofrj.com/wp-includes/js/tinymce/plugins/wordpress/img/trans.gif” mce_src=”http://adayinthelifeofrj.com/wp-includes/js/tinymce/plugins/wordpress/img/trans.gif” alt=”” class=”mceWPmore mceItemNoResize” title=”More…” /></p> <p>It is no wonder then, that the struggle of the <b>Bangsamoro</b> people, our brothers and sisters who consider themselves no less Filipinos than we all are despite their desire for self-determination, have continually fought for their right at all odds and at all costs. <b>BJE </b>or no <b>BJE</b>, their struggle for recognition and acceptance as the “first nation” will always remain. This sentiment burns inside them, passed on from generations to generations..and will probably continue even after many of us are long gone. Sometimes, I feel that if we, the “more tolerant” people of the Spanish and American occupation had that same conviction, everything would have been different. Not necessarily better or worse — but different.</p> <p>After all that’s happened this past month, it is obvious. After all these years, we still aren’t ready to accept them. As the song goes, “<b>so glad we’ve almost made it…so sad they had to fade it.</b>.” We were almost there. We were so close. It could have brought us the peace we’ve long been waiting for. We were so close. But how are we to know now? The MOA was dead the moment it was TRO’d by the SC. That wasn’t just a snag or a hurdle we had to overcome. That was a barrier. A thick concrete wall that went up so high there was no way to cross it.</p> <p>It’s tempting to think that somehow the message of peace embedded in the botched BJE MOA on AD was lost in translation — as it was “translated” by speculators and other otherwise well-meaning pundits. Sometimes headlines can be very misleading. Sometimes, it is best to play cynic. As I’ve noticed, many articles on the MOA had been mostly anti-BJE. I hope that doesn’t mean they are anti-peace. But just the same, the picture of the Bangsamoro being secessionists are prevalent in the papers. Just look at the headliines, editorials and caricatures. It is therefore no wonder that the BJE MOA never found favor in the average ill-informed or uninformed Filipino.</p> <p>But right now, it seems useless to lobby for it. The Palace, through Solicitor General Devanadera and almost all its secretaries (press, executive..etc) have unanimously announced that the government is now junking the MOA for real. It will not be signed either in its “present form” or “in any form” and have quickly announced a new policy for dealing with the negotiations — that it will only be in the context of <b>DDR</b> (disarmament, demobilization and rehabilitation). And what do you expect the MILF thinks about all this? As if they’ll ever say yes to this excitedly. I’m guessing they have this to say: “DDR? In your dreams, pare!”. I mean, come on. Do you expect them to believe that they will finally achieve through unarmed negotiations what they never got through armed negotiations? Very Hollywood-ish. Unlikely, if you ask me. They will never give up the sole source of their perceived power. All this new strategy will lead just lead to more and more conflict and more and more related problems. And now, we face a new issue. We face the issue of starting over and starting off at the wrong foot. This is no clean slate. This is a full plate we start with.</p> <p>”<b>Welcome to your life, there’s no turning back..</b>”</p> <p>This is our life now — the post-BJE-MOA-junked kind of life. Endless fighting. More food scarcity. More evacuees, now having their Ramadan in makeshift ecvacuation centers with no more than a roof for protection. More political and social unrest. Oh, yes, we have our little Darfur now here in our own backyard. It may not be a direct ethnic-cleansing but it’s war just the same. This is our people suffering here. These are fellow Filipinos.</p> <p>I hope there aren’t Filipinos celebrating the fact that the peace process was a failure — that the BJE MOA was a failure. That the negotiators were failures. That we are now at war.</p> <p>To you, my fellow Filipinos, Muslims. Christians, Lumads.. and all the stakeholders in the Mindanao peace process, in this crucial time in our history, I dedicate this song:</p> <p><b>Everybody Wants to Rule The World — by Tears for Fears</b></p> <p><a href=”http://adayinthelifeofrj.com/wp-content/uploads/everybody-wants-to-rule-the-world.mp3″ mce_href=”http://adayinthelifeofrj.com/wp-content/uploads/everybody-wants-to-rule-the-world.mp3″><<== Click to play “Everybody Wants to Rule the World”</a></p> <p><i>Welcome to your life<br /> There’s no turning back<br /> Even while we sleep<br /> We will find you<br /> Acting on your best behavior<br /> Turn your back on mother nature<br /> Everybody wants to rule the world</i></p> <p><i>It’s my own design<br /> It’s my own remorse<br /> Help me to decide<br /> Help me make the most<br /> Of freedom and of pleasure<br /> Nothing ever lasts forever<br /> Everybody wants to rule the world</i></p> <p><i>There’s a room where the light wont find you<br /> Holding hands while the walls come tumbling down<br /> When they do I’ll be right behind you</i></p> <p><i>So glad we’ve almost made it<br /> So sad they had to fade it<br /> Everybody wants to rule the world</i></p> <p><i>I can’t stand this indecision<br /> Married with a lack of vision<br /> Everybody wants to rule the world<br /> Say that you’ll never never never never need it<br /> One headline why believe it ?</i><i> Everybody wants to rule the world</i></p> <p><i>All for freedom and for pleasure<br /> Nothing ever lasts forever<br /> Everybody wants to rule the world</i><br /> <img class=”alignleft” src=”http://signatures.mylivesignature.com/85704/rjmarmol/sig_1217605896.jpg” mce_src=”http://signatures.mylivesignature.com/85704/rjmarmol/sig_1217605896.jpg” border=”0″ alt=”” width=”181″ height=”38″ /></p>

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I’m RJ Marmol — writer, musician, and independent creator based in Manila.

I write songs, essays, and books about the messy overlap between money, overwhelm, creativity, identity, and rebuilding. Much of my work circles around what happens when life stops feeling manageable — and how we try to think clearly, make decisions, and keep moving anyway.

I’m also the author of Rebuilding Under Debt: Thinking Clearly When Everything Is a Blur, a nonfiction book published under Steady Hand Press. The paperback edition is listed under my full publishing name, Cecilia Regina Aquino Blanquera.

On the music side, I release work as HeyRJ. On the writing side, this site is where I gather my books, essays, notes, and whatever I’m building next.

Music

HeyRJ is my sonic soul project. I create raw, minimalist-style and deeply personal music interpretations that feel like a late-night conversation with your truest self.

By blending lo-fi acoustic textures with poetic honesty, my work explores love, loss, grief, healing, and the quiet in-betweens of life. Each song is a letter — a journal entry — a gentle companion for when the world feels too loud or too quiet.

While my catalogue began with intimate cover renditions, my work is increasingly being shaped by original writing, drawing from years of poems, lived questions, and emotional survival.

“Stuck Home Syndrome” released on March 20, 2026 is my first original 20-track album written during a period when time felt compressed and days began to blur into each other. The songs came from sitting with thoughts that had nowhere else to go — unfiltered, repetitive, and sometimes uncomfortable. It’s a concept album that isn’t built around singles or polish. It’s closer to a continuous inner monologue, recorded with minimal production and very little ornamentation and meant to be listened to as one cohesive body of work. The goal wasn’t to resolve anything, only to document how it felt while it was happening.

On May 29, 2026 I released new original singles – “Rapturous”, “Uh Huh”, “Look At You”, “All That” and “Blew Print”. I continue to release both original and cover songs and intend to so for as long as I can so check back every once in a while — you might. just find something you’ll like.

For business inquiries relating to music, email me at: heyrjmusic[at]gmail[dot]com or my personal email at: rjmarmol[at]gmail[dot]com.

Books

Rebuilding Under Debt: Thinking Clearly When Everything Is a Blur

A nonfiction book about what debt does to the mind — and how to begin functioning again when financial stress has made everything feel blurred, urgent, and overwhelming.

Rather than treating debt only as a financial math problem, the book explores the emotional and cognitive realities of financial distress: shame, decision fatigue, avoidance, panic, relationship strain, and the difficulty of making sound decisions while mentally depleted.

Published under Steady Hand Press. It’s available worldwide in ebook and paperback formats on Amazon. Bookstores and libraries can also be order it wholesale via Ingram.

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For book-related inquiries, media requests, bookstore questions, or discussion-group invitations, you can reach me through the contact page on this site or send me an email to rjmarmol[at]gmail[dot]com or hello[at]steadyhandpress.com