For 27 years I’ve been trying to believe and confide in
Different people I’ve found.
Some of them got closer than others
Some wouldn’t even bother and then you came around
I didn’t really know what to call you, you didn’t know me at all
But I was happy to explain.
I never really knew how to move you
So I tried to intrude through the little holes in your veins
And I saw you
But that’s not an invitation
That’s all I get
If this is communication
I disconnect
I’ve seen you, I know you
But I don’t know
How to connect, so I disconnect
You always seem to know where to find me and I’m still here behind you
In the corner of your eye.
I’ll never really learn how to love you
But I know that I love you through the hole in the sky.
Where I see you
And that’s not an invitation
That’s all I get
If this is communication
I disconnect
I’ve seen you, I know you
But I don’t know
How to connect, so I disconnect
Well this is an invitation
It’s not a threat
If you want communication
That’s what you get
I’m talking and talking
But I don’t know
How to connect
And I hold a record for being patient
With your kind of hesitation
Oh I need you, you want me
But I don’t know how to connect
I love this lyrics! I’m sure everyone can relate in some way or another. Is this a real song? If not you are a great writer! I also like the technology references, very modern.
@digital media college: i wish i wrote this, but no, i didn’t. these are lyrics to “communication”, track 1 of the “long gone before daylight” comeback album of “the cardigans”..yes, you are right, many people can relate to it..wonderful lyrics i must say.
@countertop display: why yes, it is a great album. “gran turismo” is very good too. and this song, same sentiments here, floored me the first time i heard it too.. :)
This song sounds very well.I would like to read other songs like this.It is reverberation of the people relationships.That is why I like it very much.Keep it up!
I’m RJ Marmol — writer, musician, and independent creator based in Manila.
I write songs, essays, and books about the messy overlap between money, overwhelm, creativity, identity, and rebuilding. Much of my work circles around what happens when life stops feeling manageable — and how we try to think clearly, make decisions, and keep moving anyway.
On the music side, I release work as HeyRJ. On the writing side, this site is where I gather my books, essays, notes, and whatever I’m building next.
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HeyRJ is my sonic soul project. I create raw, minimalist-style and deeply personal music interpretations that feel like a late-night conversation with your truest self.
By blending lo-fi acoustic textures with poetic honesty, my work explores love, loss, grief, healing, and the quiet in-betweens of life. Each song is a letter — a journal entry — a gentle companion for when the world feels too loud or too quiet.
While my catalogue began with intimate cover renditions, my work is increasingly being shaped by original writing, drawing from years of poems, lived questions, and emotional survival.
“Stuck Home Syndrome”released on March 20, 2026 is my first original 20-track album written during a period when time felt compressed and days began to blur into each other. The songs came from sitting with thoughts that had nowhere else to go — unfiltered, repetitive, and sometimes uncomfortable. It’s a concept album that isn’t built around singles or polish. It’s closer to a continuous inner monologue, recorded with minimal production and very little ornamentation and meant to be listened to as one cohesive body of work. The goal wasn’t to resolve anything, only to document how it felt while it was happening.
On May 29, 2026 I released new original singles – “Rapturous”, “Uh Huh”, “Look At You”, “All That” and “Blew Print”. I continue to release both original and cover songs and intend to so for as long as I can so check back every once in a while — you might. just find something you’ll like.
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A nonfiction book about what debt does to the mind — and how to begin functioning again when financial stress has made everything feel blurred, urgent, and overwhelming.
Rather than treating debt only as a financial math problem, the book explores the emotional and cognitive realities of financial distress: shame, decision fatigue, avoidance, panic, relationship strain, and the difficulty of making sound decisions while mentally depleted.
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5 responses to “I Disconnect”
I love this lyrics! I’m sure everyone can relate in some way or another. Is this a real song? If not you are a great writer! I also like the technology references, very modern.
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@digital media college: i wish i wrote this, but no, i didn’t. these are lyrics to “communication”, track 1 of the “long gone before daylight” comeback album of “the cardigans”..yes, you are right, many people can relate to it..wonderful lyrics i must say.
@countertop display: why yes, it is a great album. “gran turismo” is very good too. and this song, same sentiments here, floored me the first time i heard it too.. :)
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I really enjoy,what a thought.Great realy great.
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Disconnect – a technical term you used for your feelings. Nice one!
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This song sounds very well.I would like to read other songs like this.It is reverberation of the people relationships.That is why I like it very much.Keep it up!
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